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vanity

i did a lot of things today that are not important and found something out that is very much so.

• went to pizzey skate park with cheechie and watched 8-year olds on scooters and dropkick (but attractive) people my age on skateboards. then to the normal dog park to play with dogs.
• visited rob since he just got back from sydney. it is always good to talk to my dude bestie.
• did nice makeup, which i enjoyed even though having 'a face' on made me feel sick since i haven't been wearing makeup in a while. i figured out a way to line my eyes that is actually subtle and flattering. the first time ever.
• listened to a bunch of HIM songs. so much i got a headache.
• picked up mum and pixie the fat dog from the airport. pixie used to be my puppy until i moved from t.i. and then she became mum's replacement child. she's ancient and wheezy but still excitable. her real name is vulpix, after the pokemon. that was such a good decision.
• i could move sooner and it's very exciting but also forcing some unpleasant decisions. oh well.

optimism

god, this is just the best, isn't it? i'm sitting here on the floor, heater in front of me, multitasking by watching films/television (the girl with the dragon tattoo and jackass, respectively) and taking notes from this book. this amazing book: finland, cultural lone wolf, by richard d. lewis, linguist and finnophile. no-one bothering me, little dog asleep next to me, and hope ahead. i think corey is coming to understand my master plan and being a lot cooler and more accepting of it. when mum comes home he's going to live somewhere else for a little while so i can actually have some time with her. i watched a video about dogs saving the world and stopping crime. i have a full tank of petrol. i am well fed, warm, and stimulated. this is a good life.

tattoos, two.

dylan moran, as bernard black, on my arse cheek, with 'BRING MY MY LOLLY' as a sort of circular frame around him, like a stamp. the portrait is mid-yelp.

i grew up watching black books and frequently yell about lollies, so it fits. i have a lot of other tattoo ideas, and most likely, i'll act on two or three, tops. but i can still dream about sitting on the toilet and staring at my heavily illustrated thighs.

other ideas are: a lioness, for the strong women in my family. a portrait of frankenfurter. '¡ay coño!' because it's something my dad said while i was growing up and something i tend to say now - just above my pubic mound. a pencil, as drawn by faris badwan. 'sisu', maybe. and a shit ton of stick & pokes.

if i could i would have heavily tattoed thighs and perhaps arse as well. this is so i can enjoy the funsies of being tattooed, but if i don't want to, i can wear a skirt and no-one will be the wiser.

tattoos, one.

i'm young and i grew up watching all the 'ink' programs - miami ink, la ink, london ink and so on, as well as liking music/musicians associated with art and tattoos. so naturally, like a lot of other people my age, i wouldn't mind certain parts of my body being covered with them.

the inner lip tattoo that skinheads (and lately, youths of any vaguely 'alternative' group) tend to get? i've seen some good options - cake, dick, truth, even small pictures. all appropriate to the persons they're stuck on. i would like the flourishes elizabeth the first put on her letters.

she did this to stop spies from adding on to her letters, official announcements and important notes. she would cover entire pages, with simple scratches at first, which eventually led to the descending curves you can see in her signature above.

i would have these on my lip to show that no-one can twist my words. that what i say is what i mean.

phassshion

my dick boyfriend capped the internet so i can't play around for two weeks. i will use this time for phashion and makeup refinement.

(i say phashion because it's fun, but not majorly important. in the same way that i say mokop - this is not something that i feel should be vital in my life, as interesting as it is, because there are better and more important things to do)

some other fun things are:

• watching the art of spain
• dissembling and painting those two skateboards behind me in the first photo
• finding the measurements for the giant indent in the wall behind me and painting something illusory to fit
• scamming the library for wisdom and knowledge (comics and phashion books)
• making that comic-painting based on a poppy HIM song that i got obsessed over
• suitcase rummage on the 9th of july
• having some time alone with the rats
• chilling with the few friends i have on the coast
• refining and re-examining the master plan of moving south and having way more fun
• collecting all of the silver. all of it. every 5c coin.
• sunbathing in winter
• smelling great.

lilac lip

i got bored.

skin: make up store foundation sample, clinique stick concealer.

eyes: mac liquid concealer & mineralise skinfinish as base, clinique gold highlight on inner corner, estee lauder white on lids, very lightly. clinique high impact mascara.

lips: a mix of four. illamasqua intense lipgloss in 'gender', sheered with a clear gloss, mixed with fyrinnae's cupcake sprinkles eyeshadow. but it was too blue-toned, so i mixed illamasqua's brink with fyrinnae's sennyo and put that on top.

cheeks: estee lauder contour, with fyrinnae's enchant. i would have used a more orange-based blush but i don't own one.